Get the fak of me

I think we just constantly be on crossroads.

For me, I try to be nonchalant about it. 

Just be "whatever this road may take me"

But the thing is, before we are on any road at all, we have to decide on which road to take on. 

The choices. 

I have been on many crossroads that it should have been easier for me now. 

But then I realised, each crossroad bears different situation. 

However for now i just...

I'm just so confused. 

And i hate it. 

(Control freak. Go figure!)

It's like the more I spend time thinking on which road im gonna take, the longer it is for me to actually be moving on.

So this basically means I'm stuck. 

Herrrgh.

I can't stand it. 

Also the cause for all of thisss. 

Hisssshh. 

Goddamnit. 

I'm not even really sure if I'm ready. 

I can't even use "fuck it!" on this. 

Because i think so far ahead.

Also because this scares me so much.