Maybe I should put thinking as my hobby

Why?
Because I can.

Yknow,
I think about so many things.
Especially when adrenaline-pumped.
Usually during driving to and back from work.

From "who's working today eh?"
To "wah lau eh! Boring ni hari ni"
To "krg lunch makan mana? Yang murah!"
To "sigh. To unfollow or not to unfollow"
To remembering some quotes I got somewhere god knows where
To seeing scenes that pop out from god knows where
To "SUBHANALLAH! Batah jua org ani"
To "apa lagu baru ah?"
To "I need to save some money. KL! KL! KL!"
To "hehehe" after some inside jokes I made myself
To "theater performances"
To "KIL! When is it coming out?"
To remembering things I've said before
To "why did I say that?!"
To "no one cares. Afterall, I'm nothing. No one likes me"
To "eh who cares! Not please everyone lah"
To "but then, if you don't care why it hurts so bad?"
To SIGH
To "I wonder what he tweeted about last night. Didn't check."
To another quote something like "...Russian like nose and pretty brown eyes"
To "not fair eh! Kenapa ia lawa atu kan?"
To "why can't I just stop thinking about him kan!"
To "oh shit! Akhir ni"
To "Alaaahh! Nada parking ni! Jauh parking ni!"
To "whoa! Range Rover!"
To "krg buat apa ah?"
To "laju. Laju. Laju. Laju. Laju. Gila batah orang ani!"
To "kenapa kan orang ani bagi sticker arah kereta nya? Apatah tu?"
To "of course!"

All that until I slowed down because of traffic jammed.
And that last quote actually me saying out loud.

The thing is, I like talking to myself.
Well, with my heads.
Yes, heads.


" to hehehe after some inside jokes I made myself"
Whoa! This is depressing.

I blame you for this thought I made

Funny,
how I try to talk to someone I just met,
particularly was trying to be nice and friendly and all that,
the words I was gonna utter stuck in my throat.

Happened once and I amused myself.

I don't get it how some people find it easy just to say things
to random people they just knew or met.
They even start with the name-callings and teasing and joking!
I mean, don't these people ever think how that would make them?

Or maybe it's just me.
Super friendly means super creppy, aren't they?

Or maybe that's just them.
Staying true to themselves.


To that kind of people,
I hate you for all the annoying things you guys said,
for all the lame, annoying and not funny jokes,
for all the high shrieks you've made when you laugh
for all the super ridiculous names you've created,
for all the attentions you've gotten,
for all the efforts you've tried and succeded,
...

Wait. This seems personal.
Oops!

I'm not likable by people but unicorns

Look at how awesome I was.
That was one hell of the hey-day.
I miss you, the old me.

Wah! What a narcissistic bitch.

Sorry I degressed.

But then, what exactly was my initial point for saying all of this?

Oh that's right.


Big fat nothing. Again.


Of course.


Stop!


This is annoying.


I know.




Bitch!