Another Heartbreak

We lost a mother figure today.

Thank you for everything. 

You have been such a good support to us. 

In everything and mostly, academically.

I remember the way you taught me English during my O Level Exam.

Thank your for your wisdom and kind words. 

Your prensence was such a delight. 

And I really really really admire for who you were. 

The way you were. 

The way you raised your children. 

The way you were with people. 

I'll miss you greatly, Buangah. 

Al-Fatihah.

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I think we are all dysfunctional. 

In one way or another. 

Just because we rarely show our affections,

It doesn't really mean we don't love each other. 

This is hard because we never really did go separate ways before. 

Didn't we?

Ah rindu. 

I just want you to know that

I am so proud of you. 

So proud that you are the first among us to be the one who are going abroad. 

To chase dreams. 

To grasp opportunities. 

To have unbelievable experiences. 

Be safe always.

Du'as for you all the way. 

xx

 

Curve ball

Its been such a long day. 

Just when we are so immersed in the idea of immense happiness,

The Almighty One just decided to throw one curve ball.

To give a little reminder. 

About His promises.  

About death. 

I particularly dont like death. 

Or funeral. 

The emotionals stir in the air are so thick that

You cannot escape from it. 

And now,

No matter how much i try,

To redha with everything,

The loss is just so visible. 

So out there. 

And everyone feels it. 

And yes, everyone grieves differently. 

Memories are all left to serve us.

To honour everything that he had done to us. 

I just hope that no one belittles anyone's memories of him. 

Sharing memories, yes. 

But to belittle somebody else's, just plain no. 

Niyapa,

May you will be placed among those in Jannah. 

And may Allah grants you forgiveness. 

You will always be in our prayers.

And you will be missed greatly. 

Al-fatihah. 

P.S. I Love You

I didn't even remember the first time we met.

Only bits and pieces.

Seeing you the first time with that hair of yours. *chuckles

And then from there, you just stormed your way in.

And change everything.

Literally.

So thank you...

For the effort you've made

For taking good care of us

For every meals you've cooked

For every lessons you've taught us

For every pep talks

For getting through us with care

For every advices that you've given

For your patience throughout the whole 15 years

For changing us from a brat to a good decent person

For being funny

For the littlest things you've done

For showing us about compassion, sabar and rezeki are all from Allah

For praying so we could be blessed by Allah

For putting up with us

For showing us the real perseverance after all the ups and downs you've gone through

For keeping it together for us during worst times

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.

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Honestly there are a lot of things that you've done for us that a simple thank you is never enough to make up for it.

You're like a mother to us.

And that is why this parting is so so hard.

Even the thought of you not living with us anymore breaks my heart <\3

(When actually you were so excited to fly back home that you couldn't sleep -___-) 

Thank you for everything.

As much as it breaks our hearts,

What rights do we have in keeping you from going back to your own home and family?

Thank you, bibi Dewi :')

❤

Withdrawal Syndrome

Weekends are killing me man.

I just cannot stop thinking about going out on holidays.

Mind you but im on withdrawal syndrome.

We went to KK last weekend.

It was the first after like 8 years or so.

Damn.

We went on road trip.

So most of the time we were all in tourist mode.

I mean, our foreheads most probably looked like a fucking billboard with 'TOURIST' written across it.

But honestly, the trip was still a pain in the ass.

Even with all the renovation to be hassle-free.

Thank god for my pills!

(Quick note: we were all having flu but who cares?)

We went to Sapi Island for some sun and beaches and wind and fish aaaand pigs.

Kidding.

But no seriously though.

There were pigs coming out of nowhere.

The pig and its...babies were eating somebody's kfc.

Having a picnic also lah, oink oink.

Heh.

Note to self:

Whenever you are on holiday and encounter something that you have never done before, DO IT!

Why?

Because why not loh!

Trust me, it will most probably be worth it.

Dude.

We went parasailing and snorkeling.

It was Ahmaazing!

(Except when you accidentally swallowed the sea water. Blekk!)

And snorkeling...it was like looking at an aquarium!

Only now you got to touch the fish!

And the coral reefs!

We also had a crash course on swimming by this guy we just met who I am now still not sure whether he's a lifeguard/tourist guide or just plain stranger.

Or all of the above. (Hahaha!)

But anyway, i am proud to tell i could swim myself onshore that day.

Without life jacket nor snorkel gear.

:8)

You know when you go to Nando's, the workers will greet you enthusiastically?

Yeah that.

We went to Nando's at 1Borneo after pulau.

So we were all curious on what they were actually saying.

And we came up with something like

"Welcome to Nando's!"

"Ibuuuuu"

I know. Ridiculous.

But we were all joining them shouting 'ibu' whenever new customers arrived.

So fun. 

Guess who ended up SO curious to find out?

Me.

Guess who ended up to confront the workers?

NOT me.

Hahahaha i asked my sister to do so.

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I dont know what to write anymore.

Thank god for my pills.

Im dozing off now.

x

why do they have to put labels on everything?

[Arctic Monkeys - Do Me a Favour]

they say everything happens for a reason.

but in real life,

when you try to explain something,

try to give them the reason why,

they will say you are so full of excuses.

people.

they are so judgemental and put label on everything.

Nathan: "Gay, straight, retarded. Why do we have to put labels on everything?"

Kelly: "Cos, we do. All right! Or-else no one's going to know what the fuck's going on."

(Misfits, Season 2 Episode 3)

on a much lighter note,

Selamat Pengantin Baru!

Aleed's 23rd birthday

i can be a little impatience sometimes though good things happen to those who wait

[Maroon 5- Sunday Morning]

A good day, today is!

look what i got for my sistah!

she was so happy that she burst into tears.

HAHAHAHA!

well, thats maybe because i told her that i took back my promise to buy her one for her birthday.

she was so disappointed.

of course, i was kidding her lah!

and for her, she demanded from head-to-toe presents!

so i got her a t-shirt and a Nike Air shoes.

im happy that everyone is happy! :)

another birthday present is coming up!

for Nana.

you just wait and see lah. okay?

okay.

and stop making me feel guilty

with all that tone when speaking and sad-face and attitudes of yours

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TODAY IS THE BEST DAY EVER!

i met rockstarr during lunch time!!!

WUHUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!

the funny thing is,

i was so star struck that i ran out from the restaurant the minute i knew that was him!

and i called Qiellah in the toilet.

i didnt even care if there was anyone in the toilet.

i screamed when Qiellah finally picked up my call.

hyperventilate.

yep, i was like that for like...10 minutes.

in the toilet!

a bit dumb, i believe so.

that one thing that change our heart

[Sheila on 7- Seberapa Pantas]

The first day of Hari Raya was like the usual.

you know, there were

the crying, hugging and salam-ing

the happiness and laughter

but most of all, in the end, it was all about...

family get together

though raya seems or feels so different right now

we still have the effort to make the most of it.

don't lose the excitement!

SELAMAT HARI RAYA, EVERYONE!

and the time has come...the depression of getting old

[John Mayer- The Heart of Life]

THE 18TH BIRTHDAAAAAAAY!!!

(ahh...cute eh! ahaks!)

THIS IZ NANA, FOR SHITZ!

May everything is good with everything.

Selamat Menyambut Ulang Tahun dalam keadaan yang sederhana tapi memuaskan.

biar lambat asal selamat...

on side note: nanti ku bagi hadiah, tunggu youknow ku keluar.

kesiaan, alum ku beduit ni laaaii...

p.s. 5 days to go for Hari Raya!

woweee!

August has come

[Duffy- Stepping Stone (Airto cover) ]

look! i have tail!
hahahahahhaapakaan!

i didn't go to school today.
they said those who in engineering and business saja yang kena suruh datang.
HEHEHE.
a pure chance of bliss of sleeping in all day.
well, half of the day.


apparently, we're celebrating my little cousin's 8th birthday
(20th July)

(far right, Mohd Aiman Hamizan)


along with my cousin's 3rd wedding anniversary
(20th July)


AND

my uda's 41st birthday which falls on the 1st of August!


best wishes to everyone!


p.s. this lately (since going back to school) i have the...tendency to fall asleep anywhere i find it comfortable enough to bring myself into the world of darkness and loss the gravity that holds me back to earth. what does that make me?

indo jaie manja basa jiu eh!

esehhmaaaaan, orang birthday! ;)

a whole lot balloon tied up around up the wrist. i can fly!

my grandparents have their 50th anniversary today!

i wish them very well

and also, Muhammad Rafiq bin Haji Roslan

is celebrating his 7th birthday

this means bouncer, karaoke, bbq and dangdut!!!

but the funny part is I just hit my PMS right about the party started

which explains why im still all dry.

i should have posted this in all wet with a big grin plastered on my face that my cheeks gonna burst, you know.

isn't that effin great?

unbelievable!

a substance of pure awesome

[Charice feat Iyaz- Pyramid]

please scroll down slowly

a run down mascara

the ceremony at Asma Hotel was yeah okay.

met Sarah ♥!

wehehehe

meanwhile

tragic, isn't it?

but it's okay, we already knew what cause it.

we got picture as evidence.

(evidence A)

TEEHEE!

girls with neon red lips

oh ho ho ho!

well, HELLO there! :)

ini adalah bahan eksperimen

iklan ini tidak ada makna. terima kasih.

THE PARTY IS GOING FIIIIIIIIIINEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

though it's raining
but thats the awesome part, we get to play and jump and get wet!
wuhuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!

factory of happiness

8th BIRTHDAY of
MUHAMMAD RAZIQ BIN HAJI ROSLAN

(the one in the middle)

hey look! WOMEN!

[Usher feat Will.I.Am- OMG]

though i don't really say that i love you and thank you for everything that often but

d'awwww, they're holding hands! AWWWWW!
HAHAHA

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY, Ma!

"If I knew as a child what I know now, Mom, I probably wouldn't have made things so hard for you. I would have understood that you were looking out for my best interest even though it may not have seemed so at the time. I would have known how difficult it is to let go, to stand back and let someone you love learn from their mistakes. I would have realized how fortunate I was to have a mother who was always there for me, even after an argument, even after I'd said things I shouldn't have. While it's too late for a lot of things it's not too late for me to tell you that I appreciate how loving you are, how giving you've always been and that even though I may not always be good at showing it, I love you very much."



and of course, to the other moms in the family:

P.S. i know as a child, we give you troubles, the countless headaches for the things we've done cause you were worried but for us, its just the things we do, the difficulties of raising us up and to give us the best so that we will have more than the best, the efforts to teach and to guide us to face the world, those times when we fall to ground and all that. maybe we don't understand (or maybe tired of it) why do you always give us the talk but maybe, someday, somehow we will understand. and when that day comes mom, you probably should say
"now you get it how hard it is?"

the greatest man on earth!

48 years it has been, since you first came to the world.

thank you for everything.

HAPPY BIRTHDAAAY!