ruin everything

can't even say something

without being told that

i can't get over "you".

can't even say something

without being questioned whether

it has anything to do with "you".

can't even do shit

because i apparently "still haven't moved on yet"

can anyone please give me some credit?

*rolls my eyes so hard and comes back with a middle finger

inner conflict

it's almost half of the year

and so far this space here only showed

how manic and borderline crazy i could be

lol

i am fine. really.

i will take whatever this is as my learning process.

process of taking it in.

process of understanding it.

process of digesting it.

process of letting it go.

and i knowwww

it's gonna take time.

most probably in a long while.

and it's ok.

imma let myself take the time it needs.

so whatever episodes that i might have,

if they ever get out of hand,

i will just gonna retreat.

more happy stories next time!

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my inner bitch:

hahahaha

whatever bullshit this is,

i dont really care.

imma just gonna have it as it goes.