Crossroad Demon

I have something that you want.

What everyone wants. 

The simple pleasure that brings satisfaction. 

And happiness. 

Money. 

Yep.

The fucking glory of dollar sign. 

And i just dont know what/how to feel.

I dont know what to do!

 

People just suddenly be nice to me. 

People just suddenly be saying nice things to me. 

People just suddenly be wanna with me.

People just suddenly be having twinkle on their eyes when they look at me. 

Oh!

The things you do when you want something. 

Nothing sweetens the pot by rubbing all that eh?

Sigh. 

I know that "agreeing" to this thing is

Like signing myself to the demon. 

For the whole 6 fucking years ahead!

I also know that

Though it may brings happiness,

This simple pleasure also means hardship and shits. 

Not to mention, SHORT simple pleasure.

Let's be honest here.

Do I want to do all this?

No. 

But did you really give me any choice?

Also no.

(The time when i wanted to stand for myself and stand the ground for my choice just totally totally backfired and crumbled into ashes/dust/pieces. And the only tactics you used were reverse psychology and guilt trips)

It is easier to spend than to save. 

It is easier to satisfy the craving than to hold yourself and be mindful. 

If only they know that

I actually dont have any. 

Dont have it. 

Money is just an illusion. 

The sense of fulfillment it gives,

Also a fucking illusion. 

D O  N O T  F A L L  F O R  I T. 

But how can i save everyone when i cant barely survive?

I don't trust myself. 

Let alone everyone i know.

Let alone you.