Lack of Faith and Everything Else

There will come a time
where I believe we will all be facing failures.

There will come a time
where I believe we will all be standing on a crossroad,
confused and bewildered.

I once believed failure only comes in the form of education.
But now, it all has changed for
I've never felt so like a failure as much as I am now.

I thought things will get easy once you have overcame the hurdles.
Because thats what all they said, right?

'Pass this exam and your life will be fine'
'Overcome this and you'll go far. Trust me'

But the truth is, it never gets easy.
The more things you have gone through, the more tougher it gets.
Well, they never actually, literally said it was 'easy'.
I guess, I should've read between the lines.

But what if, this is it, for me?
What if, this is all I ever can do?
Aren't we supposed to know our very own strength and capabilities?
I feel like I don't have the strength to continue anymore.
I need a new...directions.
But then why don't I believe everything I just said? said the head.
What if all of this is just because I'm too afraid?
Of things.
Of uncertainty.

Don't you just feel at loss thinking if I choose this now, what will ever happen to me if i choose the other one?

At crossroads.
Where the choice you'd make will change the course of your life.