Monday, July 11, 2016

i actually turned 25

hahahaha
but really though, 25??
T W E N T Y - F I V E

the age where you should get married.
the age where everyone starts throwing you questions.
my mom got married when she was 25, so there's that.

it is also at this age where people assume you got it all figured out.
your career.
your life.
your partner.
your financial.

erk all the big adult words.

but what REALLY is to be figured out?
when actually here i am just taking the days as it comes lol.

well i stop figuring out all the (supposedly) necessary things.
try to, mind you.
because all that are in the hand of the Almighty.
yes, efforts are to be put in but leave the rest to Him.
for someone who is a control freak, i'm still learning the process and the idea of redha.

actual redha.
knowing there are things you can't handle and
letting go of what you can't handle.
accepting of whatever He had/has planned.

i decided i had enough with whatever happened in the past.
that includes everything that wont benefit me.
for example, liking people.
HAHAHAHAHA!

but seriously,
my days of having crush on/liking someone are over.
i wanna put it behind me.
pasal inda pedah y'alls
hahahah

this also means that i won't be writing the follow up on my previous post on
even though i promised that i would.
pasal inda pedah y'alls
no matter how funny that post i structured it to be.
(lol perasan cali)

this year's birthday also made me realised
how i don't really care about the amount of people sending in text messages/greetings.
quality over quantity lettew.
but seriously no matter how many messages you received, 
when you didn't get the ones from who really mattered then
apakah maksud semua ini?
hahhahaha

but seriouslyyyy
messages/greetings from people who are important to you is actually important.
you'd actually feel heartbroken and sad when they don't.
menyamal lol.
but since you're 25 (!!), sikit saja lah.

which brings me to these bunch of people:


MY ITB GANG!
(except for the guy in the middle. he was the host at one of the house we went raya to lol)

we went for a very short raya trip together to Lumut yesterday.
bear in mind, none had greeted me that day.
truth to be told, i was kinda expecting for them to throw surprises.
expected them to throw one during one of the houses we went to.
but none.
they didn't even pull one when they sent me back home.
-___________-"

so i was like "oh well. it doesn't really matter anyway"
and i said bye to them and shooed them since it was already late.
didn't invite them in even if they wanted to because they said alang2.
but i said no because i don't know (more like don't like) to entertain guests hahahah.
but my mom was welcoming them in (which apparently came cause they cried help)
so it was all kind of rushing, here and there.
i was flabbergasted and when things finally settling down,
that's when i turned around and saw Karen came in with a cake!
-____________-"

sigh
these people ah.
they never failed to pull one every year for me.
it's annoying hahahaha.
but i am very grateful.
the time and effort they put into :')

so thank you Allah for lending me
all of these lovely people.

love you.


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