never ending same old sad story

i really don't get it though.
i really shouldn't be doing all this.

get a fucking grip!

like seriously,
all of this aren't really worth it.
like sheeesh,
you should know better!!!

i mean,
why am i so hell bent, wrecking my brain, figuring thing out,
just so i can see you?
like, just see you!
literally just at the sight of you.
and i am okay with that.

like asdfghjkl?!!

when in reality,
pfft,
when honestly,
i'm not even sure if you even realise i'm there.
i'm not even sure if you even have the slightest idea about this.
i'm not even sure if you even have the same feeling as i do.

eurgh.
cliche shit.
and i hate this.
like seriouslyyyyyyyy

and i really hate it
because i can't figure this out.
and i can't figure you out.
and also i can't stop thinking about it.

am i that dumb or am i just that delusional?
dumb that i can't even read your signals?
or delusional to think that there are even signals?

like ugh i give up okay!
like pshfft!

fuck all of this.
fuck you.