Hold Your Heart

ok i'm trying to do this as fast as i can
because let's face it,
tomorrow is the day everyone getting back to reality.
time to keep our nose to the grindstone!

so far though
i don't really know what to write here.
but i got to.
need to keep that tradition alive!
hahahaha

ok time to reflect and improve.

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i have decided what's the best thing happened to me in 2015.
i have been racking my brain, trying to remember on what.
and every single time i have come to the same thing.
so, the best thing ever happened in 2015 was

#HUJAN10TAHUN

hahahahaha

but really though

it was the best feeling i have ever felt.
the best content feeling i have ever felt.
the best enjoyable time i have ever experienced.
the worst withdrawal i have ever felt.

i still occasionally think about it
and actually miss it

*wails

i couldn't even take a proper or decent
or instagram worthy picture of that night
because it was that good.

i didn't have the time to take a perfect picture to sum it.
i just kinda let it soaked in me.
embraced all the feelingsss maaan.

god! i miss it

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try to change myself for the better.
be more a pious muslim.
insyaAllah

i hope i can do this.
effort is all that matters.
insyaAllah.

kinda nervous for declaring this.
but at the same time, i think it's good for me.
insyaAllah.

stay istiqamah.
trying to seek seeking redha from the Almighty.

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boys aren't really worth it.
i realised that.
after what happened
*rolls eyes so hard i might go blind

but seriously you guys.

they are not worth it.
they are not worth your time.
they are not worth your effort.
they are not worth the space in your mind.
let alone your heart!

so do yourself some favour,
do not lose yourself over someone else
who doesn't even know what to do with you.

get a grip!!

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another goal for this year is
SAVE YOUR FUCKING MONEY!

like really fucking serious now.
must be from now.
or else, fucking die maaan.

really really really really need to save money.
suffer a little while this year.
promise it'll be worth it.

and please know, that money will be used
for your next year UK trip ok.

so hold on!

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i'm sorry for this short post.
but i think i hit a wall now.
i seriously don't know/have anything to write now.

but write soon!

May this year brings more kindness and good things to everyone.
More success stories!

xx