Apa itu forever?

Forever is such a long time.
Yet time does not exist.
It's an illusion.

But I do feel like I want things between us
will not be dead or maimed through time.
By time.

I know it takes effort and work.
You said you will always have my back as I have yours.
We're doing this without verbal agreement.
We just knew.
We acknowledged.
Because that is just how we roll.

But then as time goes by,
How do I know you still have my back?
Or is it wrong of me to even question this?
Is this such blasphemy?

Yet I dont dare to question this upfront.
I'm so afraid to hurt you.
To hurt what we have.
So I let it go.

And maybe its wrong.
Because now I don't seem to care anymore.
With the knowledge that
we would always get/continue it on where we left it off.

I'm fine with this.
I guess.
I'm not so sure.

Do I have the right to want more though?
Because I seem like I just need something.
To reassure me.

Because I feel like I'm...
Losing this.
Losing you.
Losing us.

Because I have this fear
Of giving up without me knowing.

It sounds crazy, I know.

But dont you just sometimes feel like you dont care about anything anymore and then in time you realised you're actually giving up?

It's true when they said
Nothing worth ever comes easy.

But what if im the only one who making this work?
It is after all,  not a one way street.