Inappropriate time to have such a good time

I know the saying

'Be careful what you wish for'

And sometimes i think that

Those things would never happened.

Because even if it does,

They are usually the bad ones.

Aren't they always?

But for now,

I wish i am numb from fellings. 

Emotions.

Or whatever they are called that usually fucked up your mind.

Guilt has rather a great power.

It got you thinkin of your conscience.

I really wish i could get rid of it sometimes.

I'd rather be cold hearted bitch than to dwell on something that clearly one-sided.

Or do they?

One-sided, i mean.

This makes no sense.

With all the way i'm doing this too even accelerated the confusion.

But i guess it reflects the way i'm thinking.

Hoping from one issue to another which its connections are rather on blurry line.

Vashappeninng?

See i did it again.