im not a people person

and i dont think i ever will be.

im not friendly.

i think i think differently.

bet you guys cant even understand that.

i dont have anything interesting to talk about.

and most of the time i really dont want to hear your gibberish talks.

i dont have the ear to hear all your problems.

im not willing to lend it.

i dont give a damn really.

i always find bliss in ignorance.

the only time i would probably love to be left alone with my own thoughts

is when surrounded with strangers.

i build a huge wall for all of you.

try to break that down and i will most likely give you that

"WHAT THE FUCK, DUDE?!!!!!!" face

just because i hate small talks. why?

because they make awkward moment even more awkward-er.

i am so hard to please lah and for that,

i am probably the most boring person in the world.

i even feel awkward when i am to be situated with kids around.

but social experiences taught me we have to act cute and

make that ridiculous faces just to get their attention,

when all they ever do is just stare.

blank stare.

what a high-standard-attention whores!

and creepy.

this technique doesnt always work.

at least to me.

which i concluded there's something wrong with me

and for that, i like to bully kids.

until they are crying and i leave the crime scene.

feeling rather happy.

so,

there IS something wrong with me.

but i just pretend all of this is only inside my head.

is this real or not is the real question.

is there something wrong with me is not.

but whatever.

for all that questions, i just respond with

'AHH...DIAMLAH!'

p.s. awkward-er is blatantly not a word. duh!