grave.

[Blue-Breathe Easy]

since Ade is soo jealous of this 'what if i die' question
soo i write one for him lahh.
as he wrote
"kamu baie.mati inda bagitau" haha
bestfriendku jua.kasian(:

so what if Ade die?
my so-boring bestfriend who only talks and whine about him and girls,him and girls,him and girls and gossips.and shits too

let's see...since he cursed us if we feel cry or sad, soo maybe i just feel my world stop for a moment.
you know kan? that moment where we feel everything stops for awhile and you skipped one breathe.soo that's it. i may feel that way...

maybe then i start to laugh.sigh.life's full with fake things! haha. If i try to message pun, maybe he's not replying cause that is soo him.karit! i try to distract myself with...things

rumors spread fast and when the time comes where people starts to push me with their big question mark above their head, i just tell them to back the hell off and laugh lagi.Then start to call his phone which only be answered by an annoying woman who keeps repeating the same answer.

moments pass...panic attack!
things like...

"what if it is true that he died? paluii ehh.macam-macam"

come across my mind(:

because we have this 'moments' where whenever we talk about death or sins...he doesn't seem care about it. he's just like:

"ehh...biar tah bahh.Andang mati jua ku ne krg psl banyak dusa pastu masuk neraka"

but even i know the truth later that day...i know i'll be crying.of course!
please Ade! even during orientation, you were crying till your eyes were swollen red!
soo puhhhh-leeeaaaaseeee...
don't be such a drama king who just shows his ego and whine about your ok-ok hair style of the day!

ok.enough pushing him!
soo...maybe after that i go for silence for years cause im sure sii Jiqqs will be just like me.
dude!we are your BABY-SITTER!
people will also see us like some kinda of ghost who hasn't lost their soul yet.
well maybe half of our soul were taken.haha
all those dark circle around our eyes.sigh.

most of all i think i may go for suicide attempt for thousand times during history class.
you know how "oh-so-interesting" it is.kan Ade?
for sure
i got no one to talk to during that class or
have the chance
to disturb your hair,
try to cut your hair with mei ling's scissors
or pull your hair occasionally when i got nothing to do
and even never to watch you eat nasi and big,yummy fried chicken during class lagi
plus hearing your complains about the canteen's foods
and hear you shout our own nicnames...setan!
so soo sooo

that's it.
and yes.i too feel regret if you die cause i'll never have the chance to know your bride-to-be
and oh!no have to dig-dig you punya kubur lahh.
like you said man!
if you dead.so?dead lahh!

that much i love my bestfriends