drama

[Craig David-Rendezvous]

so this is the first time

im crapping myself out.
i read sii Jiqqs's and that's totally switch on the gear in my hands

soo what will i do if Jiqqah, my petite-fragile-gila-bitchy and so-called-berangin bestfriend die?

here it goes...when one day she's not schooling out of the blue and the talk begins to spread that she died...the first thing i'll do is laughing.yes! im laughing Jiqqs.hear me?
why? as she said before we live in denial. we can't take any truth or any lies. life's complicated.

then im just gonna make sure that its not April and may be check on Ade's face.
and I come home and try to message her like this:

"dude...mana you?people said you died! palui jua tu.haha"

If she's not replying which is not suprising for me then i try to call her. which the truth is there now and the worst is waiting for me just around the corner.Maybe babah Azary will answer my call at that time.

I will absolutely cried myself out and i sobbed soo hard that i may fainted cause it hurts like hell. when i gain conscious, i hysterically demanded for a ride to her house...like really fast! cause to me it is not happening!

I don't well damn care if she's disappeared from the online world..i will sure mind if she's gone in this REAL world. im sure i will be like:

"Jiqqs,don't leave me, i'll be alone in this world-our world.who's gonna be my gossip partner? my all-in-crime partner? or who's gonna hit my hand when i disturb other people's stuff or tell me to stop from staring at people? don't leave me just yet. no.not yet.we're not even yet travel together alone with Ade jua."

sure i can move on and live with Ade but then it will just me to take care of him.you know that. that's why i need you.and more than that i don't know what else. no more our wink-wink kinda stuff about hot guys. or maybe who's gonna updated me?

ok.next.mourning for the whole year.that's for abso-fucking-lutely sure! maybe i will turn into an emo and give hard time to Ade cause he just can't keep up with me.Hard time cause his friend is a bitter,cynic weirdo which cause him to lost his mojo over girls.haha.
eventually i die too.sigh.cause i refused to see any shrink(:

very dark imagination and top of all it says i'll be missing you like crazy

a positive picture of it, maybe sound like this:
yes.i mourn maybe for i-dont-know-how-long time.and i move on too.
looking at every bright side in every situation and maybe start to clean myself out from the tears
and start to shoosh-ing away the dark cloud above my head.
and do all the things we used to plan in not-so-serious way
i bring along Ade and maybe Waney or the whole pack.
reminisce every memory we shared
and i think its hard to just erase you from my life
cause you are part of my life(:
soo just don't yet die!

what would you do if i die and never see you again?

i am very good at exaggerating things.am i?