i dont know what to trust anymore

[B.o.B feat Hayley Williams- Airplanes]

(the picture is irrelevant to this post)

i sedih sangat. hampa.

the...school's orientation ends todaay! finally.

I DIDN'T KNOW WE WERE GONNA HAVE WALKATHON TODAY!

mau mati rasanya!

just thanks heaven, i wore the right shoes.

tapi aku escape. HEHEHE!

in the afternoon.

after signing the attendance.

i terus M.I.A

during the time of this orientation, i uhh...made a few friends (kali)

funny story is, they all know my name and go like "hey zulfa!" and something like "eh, zulfa!"

to which i responded like "oh! hey...!" or "EHHH!!"

i don't know their names.

not even one!

pelik.

we were having lunch together tadi!

and it's Qiellah's 19th birthday!

bebehz tercinta, tau.

aaaaaaaaaaaaaand, i run out of words.

mmmmkaay.

p.s. this is crap! i use too many inside jokes lah.

and my mood...macam rollercoaster!

i'm just that weird

i can't believe my holiday is over now.


and it's actually time to go to school. again.
and one of the thing i wish it never exists in this world has started:
orientation!

i never really like the idea of orientation.
or maybe it's just me who isn't so friendly and i judge and im rude and all that sorts. HEHEHE.
well, i tend to build defensive wall when surrounded with strangers.
i just don't feel comfortable in 'getting to know each other' crap.

so it's peculiar how can i even have friends, yeah?
but i realised that my friends are those people who i once felt 'amazed' at when i first met them.
like si Haziqah Azari, i was amazed how small she was when we first met in form 1.
Ade: was amazed how obnoxious he looked like and sounded when talking. (still do)
Qiellah: was amazed how she can be talking craps but making sense at the same time.
Nazurah: was amazed that she can curse that can pierce right through your heart and it's amazing how i can relate things with her.

(i can mention everyone here but AKU MALAAASSS!)

so i feel sorry to them who are in the same 'rumpun' or whatever they called it as me.


but orientation is still a good thing though.
BELUM LAGI START BELAJAR!