thoughts with abrupt stop

to point out the point i'm trying to point out

2012-01-26T23:17:00.003+08:00

do you know what irony is?

oh before that,

i just wanna point out that the point that i'm trying to make in the previous post has error.

back to my initial point.

something hits me sometime around today.

i just remember how i lost my "passion" in knowing things.

you know, my curiosity isn't so ballistic or wild like it used to.

i remember how i always find it amusing in littlest things.

but now?

it may goes like 'meh' 'huh' 'hmm' 'right' 'ada ku kisah?' and not necessarily in that order.

i remember how i planned that i would take Psychology or Philosophy for my course in Uni,

just because i took Sociology in A Level and pure interest in them.

I even wrote how "im interested of how the mind works"

and that, people, is expectation.

when in reality...

I am now taking course of Information System.

I am an IT student, for heavens sake!

I am now learning of how the computer works.

what's inside them and what not.

that's how irony works.

very funny

i can't say i blame myself.

or the universe, for that matter.

i just wanna point out the point i'm trying to make here is

life works in a mysterious ways

but everything happens for a reason. it must be.

2011-12-31T20:57:00.004+08:00

[Rihanna- We Found Love]

so here is what i gotta say before 2011 ends.

im not gonna whine how the time flies. that is so cliche!

the end of 2011 marks the end of my attachment. finally!
the end of 2011 also marks the start of new semester in one week times. blerrrgh!
staying true to yourself is a hard job
when surrounded with a lot of people with a lot of different attitudes makes point no 2 even harder to do but its not impossible.
when someone says something bad to you, the saying 'it takes one to know one' is definitely true. (like when someone is saying that you're a bitch. Go figure!)
when two parties are in a fight, being the neutral is never the best idea. In fact, its a huge pain in the ass.
its funny when everything seems to fuck up
i can never be a friendly person. no matter how hard i try.
people amazes me though this never really help me in point no 8.
the only advantage i get from point no 8 is i have refined my skill in eavesdropping.
i just realised point no 8 is the pain in my ass for most of my 2011
first impression still is a taboo to me.
good looking person always brighten more of your day.
i can always find funny things when everyone is in tensed situation
im a skeptic for the jolly good feelings and things and all.
i will always be amazed and awed to people with amazing thoughts and logics.
i think faster than i type. hence the second sentence up there where i forgot to put in the word 'fast' after how.
and i am easily influenced. hence the way im doing this.

Are you really expecting me to tell everything in here?

thats a whole 12 months of experiences and flashbacks!

but have a good year everyone.

Count your blessings

2011-12-14T00:10:00.005+08:00

The problem with people, they judge.

The problem with people, they assume.

The problem with people, they talk behind one's back.

The problem with people, they provoke.

The problem with people, they feel victimised.

The problem with people, they feel superior than the other.

The problem with all of these, I might be wrong.

In the end, all I know, the problem with all of us,
We are all fools.

contradicting never really help, right?

2011-11-19T23:52:00.004+08:00

they say write what you know.

so here is what i know, well, at least for now.

i believe i am still in 'fasa pencarian identiti'

dan fasa pencarian identiti ini sungguh 'suck'

Unbelievably clueless

2011-11-12T20:17:00.007+08:00

So my sister has a cat.
She is unbelievably has a fat belly.
We always thought she is just plain fat.
Cause yknow, all she ever do is eat and sleep.

Today when we were playing with her,
Particularly trying to make her do some "exercise"
She was annoyingly clingy and my sister complains how much her weigh nowadays.
And then I heard she was wheezing.

I actually laughed for doing this but out of curiosity,
I googled 'can my cat have asthma?'
And it turned out they can!
But the only symptom that matched her was just the wheezing.
So I thought maybe the cat is so fat that she's having trouble breathing.
Hence, the wheezing.
(that's actually rhyming. Including this thing)

But then I continue googling.
'how do I know if my cat is pregnant?'
Now this is when things getting interesting.
So I found this

The first noticeable sign of pregnancy in a cat is a change in her nipples. Approximately three weeks after mating her nipples will become pinker and more enlarged. This is called 'Pinking'

HAHAHA! Check!

And then;

Your cat may become more affectionate and want more of your attention.

Oh man! That's a check!

There may be an increase in appetite.

Check!

As the pregnancy advances your cat may begin 'nesting' behaviour. She may begin searching for a place to deliver her kittens. She will try to get into closets, cupboards and other secluded places.

Check! (considering the fact that she was hiding under the table)

OH MY GOD! THE CAT IS PREGNANT!

But you see,
When I told all of this to my bibi, she only simply replied me with
"ah sok tahu!"

And there I was, standing more clueless than ever.

Maahn! Doubt is a bitch.

2011-11-03T21:38:00.002+08:00

wishing things to happen but

too scared to let it happen

(this is me right now)

you trigger the stalker in me

2011-11-03T21:10:00.004+08:00

sorry for the last angry post

i never intend to make this to be a habit

i never intend to be so hateful

hate is a baggage

i should calm down.

but that was on impulse.

down right angry and letting it out.

so, the attachment time is getting to its end.

one month only. hoooyeaaahh!

one time, i get so excited cause i cant wait for holiday.

the other time, i feel like im gonna miss my attachment place and the people.

oh well.

lately,

i have so many scenes inside my head that i have to write it all down.

like they all keep repeating in my head that i just have to.

write it down, i mean.

whats the point in doing that?

i really dont know but at least my mind is finally shutting up.

unfortunately, for a while.

oh well.

now,

i have nothing else to say.

i do but it seems pointless.

oh well.

Celaka lah you!

2011-11-01T18:14:00.006+08:00

I never get it why people would treat me like dirt
Sure, I don't care at all but who are we kidding right?
IT HURTS LIKE "BAIE KALI KAU ANI!"
You know what I mean?

I know karma and paying back and all that sorts
But to humiliate me as an addition?
That is just taking it to a whole new level!
That shit makes me wanna think twice why did I ever end up with an asshole like you.

So okay, I've dealt with lots of your sick jokes.
And you probably answered me like 'mcm inda biasa saja kau ani'
But that act you pulled, that's just like a turning point.
A...uhh, slap in the face!

Sigh

Maybe I sound childish but fuck you!
No one have the right to treat me like that.
Let alone you, to have the privilege to be the first!

Oh god, I hate you.
And you know what, I think I've always been.
You have unresolved issues and just go cry to your mommy!
With this look upon your face:

Yeah, retarded face!
Even a 5 year old can pull that one.
Maybe you can do it much excellently.
Because you know, only YOU can do things way better than anyone else.

Go die lah you!

Maybe I should put thinking as my hobby

2011-10-13T20:26:00.007+08:00

Why?
Because I can.

Yknow,
I think about so many things.
Especially when adrenaline-pumped.
Usually during driving to and back from work.

From "who's working today eh?"
To "wah lau eh! Boring ni hari ni"
To "krg lunch makan mana? Yang murah!"
To "sigh. To unfollow or not to unfollow"
To remembering some quotes I got somewhere god knows where
To seeing scenes that pop out from god knows where
To "SUBHANALLAH! Batah jua org ani"
To "apa lagu baru ah?"
To "I need to save some money. KL! KL! KL!"
To "hehehe" after some inside jokes I made myself
To "theater performances"
To "KIL! When is it coming out?"
To remembering things I've said before
To "why did I say that?!"
To "no one cares. Afterall, I'm nothing. No one likes me"
To "eh who cares! Not please everyone lah"
To "but then, if you don't care why it hurts so bad?"
To SIGH
To "I wonder what he tweeted about last night. Didn't check."
To another quote something like "...Russian like nose and pretty brown eyes"
To "not fair eh! Kenapa ia lawa atu kan?"
To "why can't I just stop thinking about him kan!"
To "oh shit! Akhir ni"
To "Alaaahh! Nada parking ni! Jauh parking ni!"
To "whoa! Range Rover!"
To "krg buat apa ah?"
To "laju. Laju. Laju. Laju. Laju. Gila batah orang ani!"
To "kenapa kan orang ani bagi sticker arah kereta nya? Apatah tu?"
To "of course!"

All that until I slowed down because of traffic jammed.
And that last quote actually me saying out loud.

The thing is, I like talking to myself.
Well, with my heads.
Yes, heads.

" to hehehe after some inside jokes I made myself"
Whoa! This is depressing.

I blame you for this thought I made

2011-10-06T19:43:00.004+08:00

Funny,
how I try to talk to someone I just met,
particularly was trying to be nice and friendly and all that,
the words I was gonna utter stuck in my throat.

Happened once and I amused myself.

I don't get it how some people find it easy just to say things
to random people they just knew or met.
They even start with the name-callings and teasing and joking!
I mean, don't these people ever think how that would make them?

Or maybe it's just me.
Super friendly means super creppy, aren't they?

Or maybe that's just them.
Staying true to themselves.

To that kind of people,
I hate you for all the annoying things you guys said,
for all the lame, annoying and not funny jokes,
for all the high shrieks you've made when you laugh
for all the super ridiculous names you've created,
for all the attentions you've gotten,
for all the efforts you've tried and succeded,
...

Wait. This seems personal.
Oops!

I'm not likable by people but unicorns

2011-10-06T19:29:00.005+08:00

Look at how awesome I was.
That was one hell of the hey-day.
I miss you, the old me.

Wah! What a narcissistic bitch.

Sorry I degressed.

But then, what exactly was my initial point for saying all of this?

Oh that's right.

Big fat nothing. Again.

Of course.

Stop!

This is annoying.

I know.

Bitch!

im not a people person

2011-09-29T20:03:00.003+08:00

and i dont think i ever will be.

im not friendly.

i think i think differently.

bet you guys cant even understand that.

i dont have anything interesting to talk about.

and most of the time i really dont want to hear your gibberish talks.

i dont have the ear to hear all your problems.

im not willing to lend it.

i dont give a damn really.

i always find bliss in ignorance.

the only time i would probably love to be left alone with my own thoughts

is when surrounded with strangers.

i build a huge wall for all of you.

try to break that down and i will most likely give you that

"WHAT THE FUCK, DUDE?!!!!!!" face

just because i hate small talks. why?

because they make awkward moment even more awkward-er.

i am so hard to please lah and for that,

i am probably the most boring person in the world.

i even feel awkward when i am to be situated with kids around.

but social experiences taught me we have to act cute and

make that ridiculous faces just to get their attention,

when all they ever do is just stare.

blank stare.

what a high-standard-attention whores!

and creepy.

this technique doesnt always work.

at least to me.

which i concluded there's something wrong with me

and for that, i like to bully kids.

until they are crying and i leave the crime scene.

feeling rather happy.

so,

there IS something wrong with me.

but i just pretend all of this is only inside my head.

is this real or not is the real question.

is there something wrong with me is not.

but whatever.

for all that questions, i just respond with

'AHH...DIAMLAH!'

p.s. awkward-er is blatantly not a word. duh!

how foolish was that!

2011-09-25T17:44:00.006+08:00

yesterday was a good day :)

it was a happy day

something that i would never forget. insyaAllah.

i wish i can really describe how i felt.

how wide my smile was, how hysterical i was,

how crazy i was, how i was so adrenaline-rushed

it was amazing!

heh

and i told to myself

'oh dear god, i can die happy now. really.'

this thing is going to have a heavy turn

the reason for all the unexpected smiles i give

2011-09-22T20:07:00.005+08:00

dear all,

there's this guy...

somehow after 'knowing' him,

i feel like for all the craps i have written here is just literally sampah.

but the thing is, im ridiculously awed by him everyday.

most of the time, its jealousy.

yknow,

i want his kind of mind,

his kind of thoughts,

his consistency,

his choices of words and everything.

and he blogs.

not in tumblr or wordpress or that kind.

simply, in blogger.

so, remember when i said i dont have the heart, the will and that sorts to do this anymore?

(its in the previous post)

well baby, i guess im staying!

heh

Thank You For Whatever We Used To Be

2011-09-15T19:16:00.004+08:00

so i know its been two months since i leave this place.

i havent got the time or the effort or the will to do this anymore

but dont have the heart to delete this thing.

oh well.

decision, decision.

right now,

im having my 8.30 - 5.30 life pace everyday.

i even work on Friday!!!

its tiring but so far, its been good.

i dont know what el

se to say or write.

but hey, raya is fine :)

oh well

2011-07-07T23:19:00.003+08:00

[Alicia Keys- If I Aint Got You]

SUBHANALLAH!

its July already.

but its okay. its alright.

im not gonna end up like i always do when it comes to this.

im improved.

moved on.

its the very last month of long vacation

and after this will be attachment.

InsyaAllah, amin!

for the last few months have been okay.

ive re-downloaded some of the series back.

im just pissed at Castle season 3.

it seems like taking forever to finish download!

sakit hati ku!

but i really want to watch that despite all.

sigh

sometimes when i have so much to tell,

there's a split second of a moment that part of me says:

"NO ONE CARES!"

backspace, backspace, backspace, backspace, backspace, backspace

lets have a silent moment for this

2011-06-17T13:18:00.004+08:00

it is confirmed.

my external hard disk is fucked up!

so long all the things inside it.

all the movies and series ive downloaded.

Goodbye.

all the moments captured when in Lumut.

Au revoir!

what makes me more sad than just losing them is that

all those time i have waited for the download to finish just seem wasted

and gone and useless and fucked!

sigh

but im okay now.

is it funny how all the movies and series ive watched flash back before me as im typing this?

or is it just plain weird?

so,

always in my mind:

The Big Bang Theory season 1-3

Castle season 1-3

Lie To Me season 1-3

Warehouse 13 season 1-2

Nur Kasih

Cougar Town season 1

Misfits season 1-2

Fight Club

Star Wars Episode I-VI

Pretty Little Liars

Kaichou-wa Maid Sama!

Atonement

Pride and Prejudice

and many more...

it's been an honour to own you :'|

why do they have to put labels on everything?

2011-06-13T23:28:00.002+08:00

[Arctic Monkeys - Do Me a Favour]

they say everything happens for a reason.

but in real life,

when you try to explain something,

try to give them the reason why,

they will say you are so full of excuses.

people.

they are so judgemental and put label on everything.

Nathan: "Gay, straight, retarded. Why do we have to put labels on everything?"

Kelly: "Cos, we do. All right! Or-else no one's going to know what the fuck's going on."

(Misfits, Season 2 Episode 3)

on a much lighter note,

Selamat Pengantin Baru!

lomo

2011-06-10T22:49:00.004+08:00

before i go more deep into this, this whole post may come out as total useless like the rest and

will ultimately waste your time.

considered yourself been forewarned

hey y'all!

my life has been...

(i actually have no words, not a clue, to finish that sentence)

so, currently we are having another wedding ceremony

last time we had it was 2 weeks ago or so.

maigaaaaaaaaaaad, tired nalang!

but guess the best part i got so far.

i finally know how to dance poco-poco.

sekadar.

ive always thought poco-poco is talur because i dont know why,

but the sense and the feeling of accomplishing things!!!!

on another news,

my brother has this Nikon D80 but has been ages since used last

cause it doesnt work properly anymore.

no service for the camera, no work nice lah the camera!

kesian.

i self-declared the camera as mine

and fortunately, no one seemed to object so i guess

everyone agreed.

hahehahehahehaheh

the way the pictures turned out makes me even more happier.

they worked out just like lomo.

okaybye!

let's do this all over again, shall we?

2011-06-04T23:13:00.004+08:00

was giggling to myself all the way at the thought of us being together again :)

i can feel how the half of me is back again

i know it sounds cheesy but i do.

im so glad you are here!

ahekahekaheks

2011-06-03T23:27:00.000+08:00

this ought to be making me happy tonight.

thank you for saying nice things :)

HI Y'ALL!

2011-06-02T23:22:00.005+08:00

been waay to long figuring out on how to upload this shit in here.

and now, ive done it!

yay!

WARNING: Sakai-ness may overload.

ahaks!

but sucks, i still dont know how to resize it.

oh well.

whats up, everybody?

2011-05-24T19:57:00.004+08:00

ive always wanted to backpack around the world.

well, at least around Europe.

do you know that feeling that

you missed out things and most of all

opportunities?

daily dose of nothing

2011-05-15T19:18:00.001+08:00

the day has finally arrived!
3 months of long vacation, here i come!
be prepared with crappy headaches and junk foods.
super.
AWESOME!

are ya fooking kidding meh?

2011-04-16T17:12:00.002+08:00

had a really crappy headache.

guess who's coming to the rescue?

Ryan, oh my dear happiness!

2011-04-07T21:16:00.007+08:00

[Katy Perry feat Kanye West - E.T]

usul orang matanya tecucuk wiper

SUBHANALLAH!

on another note,

all assignments are done!

ALHAMDULILLAH!

OHYEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHH!

Ah finally, March is over!

2011-03-31T20:49:00.002+08:00

[The Wanted - All Time Low]

man oh man!

you should see how it turned out, especially now.

and look at how sweet i am.

Lukman should see this!

2011-03-31T20:42:00.002+08:00

Aleed's 23rd birthday

and that's it, i believed i was just an option

2011-03-24T20:18:00.004+08:00

[Neon Trees- Animal]

Guten Tag!

(thats hello in German, as i googled it)

so there was that day,

i was so depressed knowing how people making me as just their second choice.

i dont know why this is such a big deal

but it hurts...so bad.

I am just no good to anyone.

I dont even meet up to any one's expectation.

and now we come to today!

i said something to my friend

and she went like "sudah kana buang baru tah aku kana guna..."

and thats when it hit me;

why did i even bother myself, going mad, for i am just an option to everyone or

how they are making me as their second choice,

when i just did the same thing to another person?

even if it was just absent-mindedly.

it makes you think, right?

on another note,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, LOVELIES!

(who am i kidding? i made plans that backfired right at me but oh well, at least everyone is happy)

FOREVER ALONE

2011-03-24T18:23:00.001+08:00

you know what, NEVERMIND

sarcasms do not end easily

2011-03-10T22:39:00.004+08:00

[Glee Cast - Bills, bills, bills]

'SSUP!

having those thing we do for every Thursday night

there will be just about a month or so to end semester 2

and then it will be

SEMESTER BREAAAAAAAAAK!

ohyeeeeeah!

2011-02-24T21:29:00.000+08:00

i wish im more than just a person

2011-02-07T21:21:00.004+08:00

[Kanye West- Love Lockdown]

me want to watch NCIS from the start!

awesome series eh!

oh hey, i havent even finished watching Groundhog Day.

gonna watch it latuuur.

maybe after, The Big Bang Theory.

i miss talking to these assholes

you see, im not all play and no work.

its play and work!

p.s. im really glad to help you out but im not a pit stop, yknow.

find that thing that can make you feel happy

2011-02-06T19:36:00.004+08:00

[30 seconds to mars - This Is War]

on our way to Lumut.

remind me not to smile like that again

hellew!

exams result are out already.

i've checked my "daily notes" and it was the same like last year.

ahh...memories rushed in.

i know how it feels when i sucked my exam.

feels like the end of the world, right?

feels like you just hit rock bottom and that sorts.

suuuuuuuuuuck!

but here's what i did;

cried my heart out

shoved the frigging big grey clouds

killed the depression nested in my head

planned out things

backed up the plans

spent the time with the gang (most of the nights)

laughed my ass off

and things turned out pretty well

like things were starting to pick up the shattered pieces

ON THE OTHER HAND,

HERE'S MY TRUCKLOADS OF HAPPINESS:

"so what if i imitate the sound of a unicorn getting tickled? HEEEHEHEHE"

always that part!

Ryan Higa, my future-spouse, said "Randomness is like sprinkles on top of vanilla ice cream...it adds extra colors to life"

2011-02-03T19:45:00.009+08:00

[The All American Rejects - Another Heart Calls]

now tell me,

how can i not love him?

HE'S MY OTHER HALF!!!

(its true, if i would ever believe in that...stuff)

Miri, "di ambang 2010"

as my dad would say it.

notice how i put my cardigan over my mom's kain sarung?

because im awesome that way!

HEHEHE!

(i bet, most of y'all reaction is 'youvegottobekiddingme' and not in that awed way)

meanwhile...

zufazafirah zulfazafirahzulkifli

RT @fezzonfffire: Remember when I caught your eye? You gave me rainbows and butterflies

umaigaaaad!

i envy people who can see themselves doing what they like as a living

2011-02-01T21:49:00.005+08:00

hi!

as of now, we're celebrating Irfan Bachtiar's 2nd birthday.

and they all are now currently singing Sahara.

srsly? yeah.

but here i am,

writing this with a whole lot of grey clouds!

im gonna shove them off in a bit.

but right now, sigh.

i have trouble with my lecturer.

well, i guess, all my mates are having trouble.

i is sungguh susah hati ini!

bah ok bye!

oh yeah, happy February!

I mean not again!

2011-01-21T20:34:00.002+08:00

I get confused easily. And sometimes its the things that arent worth my energy at all. Umaigaaaad! Ah yes, i might be saying that a lot for this lot while. Alright? Okaythanksbye!

im a lot of thing and maybe creepy is one of 'em

2011-01-13T20:46:00.002+08:00

[RAN- Jadi Gila]

wanted to know my hair length

guess i got a little carried away...

so!

its the second week of January.

i just recently going up to school again

but right now, it still feels like holiday cause

most lecturers havent started any classes yet which means no tutorial

and also equals to no class till noon!

don't you just love the first week of schooling?

and whats more of a good news is that for this second semester,

all of my classes end till 3.40!

OHYEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHH!!!

p.s. i pray for good things to happen

im a full of nothing on everything

2011-01-01T21:54:00.003+08:00

happy twenty-eleven, everyone!

hope things gonna work very well this year.

best wishes.

im missing you hard, haziqah azari! ♥

I Seriously Want To Marry Ryan Higa

2010-12-17T00:14:00.003+08:00

[Marcell - Pantaskah]

yello!
i know ive been missing out but
life has been like a rollercoaster.
but i know i'll be fine.

it's DECEMBER!
maigaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad, where the hell did the time go?
(typical question, that is)

good times. goood times!
im missing you guys.

I want to marry Ryan Higa!

2010-11-27T20:32:00.004+08:00

[JRA- By Chance (You and I)]

what a day!

i had an early, sweating and tiring adventure at the top of the morning!

guess universe don't like me today.

despite all that,

went to the G3 beach gathering or party or whatever.

it was awesome (despite im in PMS time)

it was okay :)

anywaaay,

Have you guys watched the 'Agents

of Secret Stuff'??

(http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kMy-6RtoOVU)

RYAN HIGA IS A NINJA!!!

risking everything for nothing

2010-11-20T21:38:00.006+08:00

so i got this friend of mine.

while on our way to ITB, she just out of the blue asked me

whether zombies are truly exist.

for some reason i was smirking

but i turned to her with a straight face

and i said "Yes. I want them to be"

(with that creepy slow voice like in those movies)

that's when she started to scream!

MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

turned out she is scared of zombies.

she even told me how she was so afraid that Brunei's population would turn into one

during the h1n1 virus spread which had caused many panics among us.

how hilarious!

maybe happy days are just meant for certain people but me

2010-11-19T21:48:00.003+08:00

it's the 19th of November.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

Zulhaffiz Zarriq Zulkifli and Syazani Haji Kahar.

i am very grateful for this year is better than the previous one.

i hope good things happen to all of us.

Allah bless us.

so!

i will have my exam on Monday and Wednesday

and that's it.

i pray for the best

and oh, Ollo everyone!

i can be a little impatience sometimes though good things happen to those who wait

2010-11-08T19:32:00.004+08:00

[Maroon 5- Sunday Morning]

A good day, today is!

look what i got for my sistah!

she was so happy that she burst into tears.

HAHAHAHA!

well, thats maybe because i told her that i took back my promise to buy her one for her birthday.

she was so disappointed.

of course, i was kidding her lah!

and for her, she demanded from head-to-toe presents!

so i got her a t-shirt and a Nike Air shoes.

im happy that everyone is happy! :)

another birthday present is coming up!

for Nana.

you just wait and see lah. okay?

okay.

and stop making me feel guilty

with all that tone when speaking and sad-face and attitudes of yours

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TODAY IS THE BEST DAY EVER!

i met rockstarr during lunch time!!!

WUHUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!

the funny thing is,

i was so star struck that i ran out from the restaurant the minute i knew that was him!

and i called Qiellah in the toilet.

i didnt even care if there was anyone in the toilet.

i screamed when Qiellah finally picked up my call.

hyperventilate.

yep, i was like that for like...10 minutes.

in the toilet!

a bit dumb, i believe so.

my world just got a little better when you are around ♡

2010-10-28T21:16:00.005+08:00

[Latiff- I don't Wanna Hurt You]

my day started very well.

came in late around 8.30 in the morning

but i was lucky enough cause the lecturer didn't come that morning.

had lunch with dua bebehz tercinta at Sawaddee.

(Thai Foods tapi lagu nya Philippines)

it was already 1.30PM and Elle didnt even show up!

forgot that her work hours ended at 12.30!

heh! my bad.

my tutorial started at 2

but with awesome luck and all that Mojo stuff,

i didnt have any class for that noon!

hurrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrraaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!

♡ ♡ ♡

my other mates also went to Gadong during that lunch hours.

pasal si Karen kan belanja Snow House.

been bragging about it for the last 3 months.

"kalau keluar elaun, aku belanja kamu Snow House. Banar ni!"

but i missed it.

oh well.

we spelled troublesome

happy day has come again

2010-10-27T21:55:00.003+08:00

[Dewa 19- Perasaanku Tentang Perasaanmu]

My bebehz tercinta is having

a very awesome 21st birthday, today!

hasil ciptaan pertama ku dengan Photoshop!

CS2 lagi tu!

(aku baru pandai Photoshop. Kesian)

cause our middle name is 'Awesome'

MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!

have a fantastic day...

wait, you are having it!

Sayang kau! <3

P.s. my "baby, baby, baby oohhhhhh...!!" moment has come.

but it didn't even close to what i have imagined the way it would be.

more like, hampa :(

Im gonna steal your heart away! MUAHAHAHAHAHA

2010-10-25T22:29:00.003+08:00

[Enrique Iglesias feat Nicole Scherzinger- Heartbeat]

waaah, didn't know that the homepage for blogger has changed now.

which tells me that ive been not around for sometimes.

Assignments...assignments...assignments...

you guys are such pain in the ass!

but on a brighter note,

got surprise text message from kekasih hati yang jauh berada di UK!

♡

p.s. a little weird for a title. Alriiiiiiiiiiiiiiight!

a dorky post

2010-10-17T17:24:00.004+08:00

[Enrique Iglesias- Addicted]

after about 6 or 7 months of abandoning it
(the last date i went was on 31st March)
and with only 3 classes after that...

SHAZZZZAAAM!!

MUAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHA

i feel like a dork for posting this.
i mean, seriously just look at how i captured myself at the first shot:

DORK!

she sends us love, all the way from London!

2010-10-15T21:31:00.005+08:00

[Enrique Iglesias- Escape]

received a text from Gyrah
saying Eqah got us some gift for all of us!
:D

speaking of the fricking devil

chocolates, dude!
CHOCOLATES!

fuck yeah, creepy eyeballs of chocolates!

THANK YOU, KEKASIH HATI!!! ♡

like a never-ending nightmare

2010-10-13T21:22:00.003+08:00

[30 Seconds to Mars- Closer To The Edge]

I somehow miss si Haziqah Azari.
which then makes me to miss Gyrah and then si Lukman.
and Ade.
but i just miss talking to him lah cause i see his face everyday masih at itb!

i miss the good old times!

but i gotta push this feeling to the side cause i got many assignments and works piling up
and the due date is getting nearer.
(you're getting faster each day,universe!)

and it gets interesting too;

IT KEEPS SHOWING UP!

i was so happy i could nearly died cause my cheeks bursted so much and i felt like i just smoked a weed

2010-10-07T22:29:00.008+08:00

[Dewa- Angin]

i'm Batman!

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Duuuuuuuuuudee!!
im feeling kinda awesome today despite the fact that at one point,
everyone seemed to ignore me today.
even my closest friend. pelik.

but i moved on.
i got no time for all those fuckers' blah blah,
you go deep, deep into shit lah!

so,
was late coming to the Accounting lecture
cause that morning, the Statistics' lecturer didnt show up.
or the class was cancel. i dont know.
anyway, the test paper (Acc) came back!
which carries about 10% for this semester 1.

"mati ni mati!"

my friend got 6 over 30!
and that was it, i convinced myself i flunked my paper too.
i aint got no basic accounting background and this is my first time ever to learn it.
heck, i dont even like Maths to begin with.
talk about dealing with numbers, i suuuuuuuuuuuuck!

heh!
but when i finally got my paper back,
i was distracted by the fact that some of my mates in the group got full mark!
yeah, FULL-FUCKING-MARK! EUGH!
and for that i didnt really check my paper first
and when i really did, i gasped!

I PASSED!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

unbelieveable

never ending

2010-10-05T18:23:00.002+08:00

and my heart dies a little

stop feeling sorry for yourself!

2010-10-04T00:17:00.003+08:00

that drama down there...

yeaah, the one below this post,

is the reason why i choose to believe that miracle doesnt exist.

we have to work our asses off to get everything,

to earn that thing you want.

its like, someone's just ramping into me with a truck or something heavy falls from the sky!

2010-10-02T16:30:00.009+08:00

[Bunkface- You and Me]

"why do you have to change your plans for tomorrow, brother?"

(i look like some psycho in disguise cause my smile is weird and scary!)

just got home from itb.
was this happy cause i drove Gyrah's car (baby nya) from itb until i reached home.
though i was late in the morning and rushing and all that,
everything was fine
but not until something ruined it.

and thinking of it makes me go:

AKU INDA JADI PEGI ARAH BUNKFACE!!!!

sedih ku.
kuyak hati ku.
hancur musnah mimpi ku.
kan menangis ku.

i mean, i was feeling really excited even from a week before!
in fact, since the news broke that they will be coming to Brunei.
and now...SEDIHH KUUUUUUUUU!!!! :(
sedih

i know, i never should have put on soo much hope on it
and feeling all giddy about it
but fuck it, i couldnt control myself.

so,
sia-sia pun saja laaaah! :(

though im still hoping there will be
something extraordinary to happen in the turn of event.

because you are the perfect boyfriend

2010-09-29T21:41:00.004+08:00

[Estrella- Ternyata]

it was just only yesterday when all of my tutorial group went to lunch out together.
while waiting for our orders to come up, they decided to play some card games.
well, most of the time we played big two and bullshit.

the cards were all distributed and we were ready to play.
and that's when one of my friend said
"EHHHH...apani??"

and she showed me this:

i was so surprised, it has becoming like that.
so surprised it was there.
so surprised that i haven't noticed it after all this time.
wont notice it if i hadnt play some game.
so surprised that i could cry.

ehex.

i miss ya, guuuurrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrll!

AAHHHH...SUDAH LAH KAU!

2010-09-25T23:06:00.003+08:00

my dearest bestfriend, Haziqah Azari
went to UK on the 22nd September.

be safe. be good.

p.s. yes, i have such a hairy hand.

asking something that won't be fulfilled

2010-09-17T11:46:00.003+08:00

finally 19, like the rest of us...

happy burthday!

terrifying

2010-09-13T21:51:00.006+08:00

so ok,

now that my nini's house is drowned with flood,

which has reached until my knee level and thats just the water inside the house,

i always imagined that crocs would appear out of nowhere.

or maybe anacondas.

just slithering around when i walked through the water.

heh!

(inda cali imaginasi ku.)

kita lawan bersama dingin dan panas dunia hingga satu hari, salah satu dari kita mati

2010-09-12T17:43:00.004+08:00

[Sheila on 7- Pria Terhebat]

was playing card games with the others at home.

who wins get the chance to express their "creativity" on the others' faces who lose.

but just for the record,

i won 10 games against my amit.

HEHEHE!

prolly staying at home for a long while

and im pretty sure, no one will come for raya cause right now,

rumah nenek saya banjir!

that one thing that change our heart

2010-09-11T15:52:00.003+08:00

[Sheila on 7- Seberapa Pantas]

The first day of Hari Raya was like the usual.

you know, there were

the crying, hugging and salam-ing

the happiness and laughter

but most of all, in the end, it was all about...

family get together

though raya seems or feels so different right now

we still have the effort to make the most of it.

don't lose the excitement!

SELAMAT HARI RAYA, EVERYONE!

and its coming again like a loop

2010-09-10T00:47:00.001+08:00

HAPPY EID MUBARAK, EVERYONE!

HAVE A VERY BLESSED ONE WITH LOVED ONES.

ALLAH BLESS :)

and they say we don't have the strongest bond of all

2010-09-08T22:35:00.006+08:00

[Ne-Yo- Part of The List]

zulfazafirahzulkifli says:

eh awu aaaaaahhhhh!!!

hows your preparation kan?

mati ni eh!

banyak beg kan kau angkut tu!

tpi kau ani lagi yang jenis tulang rapuh

Haziqah Azari says:

sial

zulfazafirahzulkifli says:

sana lagi sajuk. to the bone tu sajuk nya!

Haziqah Azari says:

orang outbound kaleeeeeeeee!!!

HAHAHAHAHAHA

because i care.

so much that i think my heart is gonna explode.

(sober conversation kami dua malam ani)

"siapa tah kan rindu me mun you bunuh diri :( "

and the time has come...the depression of getting old

2010-09-04T22:27:00.004+08:00

[John Mayer- The Heart of Life]

THE 18TH BIRTHDAAAAAAAY!!!

(ahh...cute eh! ahaks!)

THIS IZ NANA, FOR SHITZ!

May everything is good with everything.

Selamat Menyambut Ulang Tahun dalam keadaan yang sederhana tapi memuaskan.

biar lambat asal selamat...

on side note: nanti ku bagi hadiah, tunggu youknow ku keluar.

kesiaan, alum ku beduit ni laaaii...

p.s. 5 days to go for Hari Raya!

woweee!

GAGAGAGAGAGAGAGA

2010-09-02T15:47:00.002+08:00

my remark is kinda an understatement!

hey Justin Beiber, you are all over the place

2010-09-02T15:30:00.004+08:00

i can't wait for my allowance to come out.

it's my first ever in my whole life.

selama ku sekulah ani tah!

but they won't...

not until October, that is.

but when they finally do, i'll be like

"baby, baby, baby ohhhhhhhh...!!"

Sometimes i convinced myself that i never should've existed

2010-08-27T21:53:00.008+08:00

[Joe Brooks- Superman]

ever wonder why this thing tastes so good even it is such an old school stuffs?

anywaaaaay,
i have test on the very first of September and on the 04th
and
i'll have my holiday for Hari Raya, a week after Hari Raya.
get me?

p.s. i miss those times when stalking is such an easy job

have faith

2010-08-25T19:45:00.005+08:00

[Boyce Avenue- On My Way]

it has been a while.
well, what can i say?
i got nothing to tell or rather share with you anyway.
unless, you want to know how fun it is to learn programming concept or internet programming.

it is, though. HEHEHE!

yesterday, marked with me being an ITB student for a month now.
oh wow, one month has passed.
and the stress of juggling with things and to sort it all out is slowly coming to me.
assignments and courseworks and tests.

Baby, you are so full with elements of surprises!!

June result was out the other day.
heh!
maahn, i'm just so grateful for getting into ITB already.
sure, i'd asked for more than this but this route is for me now.
maybe it has something for me in miles ahead.
something far more better than i could ever imagined.
as of now, i'm just gonna enjoy the ride until i find it.

we're the at the end of August already.
which reminds me this:

yaaaah! inda lagi batah :(
if come to think of it, like, really hard, i would probably end up crying.
so...yeah

we've come to this point already ;
us with our own way,
carry on with life and taking it beyond our own little world.

but hey,
im gonna miss us!

2010-08-21T23:36:00.001+08:00

kau lawa, rockstarr!

i'm your #1 fan!

2010-08-14T13:33:00.009+08:00

Poreotics/Poreotix,

champion of America's Best Dance Crew Season 5!

i could watch this thing all daaaay long!

(well, been watching this since yesterday)

and thanks to it, now Taylor Swift's Love song is stuck inside my head.

and so is Rihanna's Umbrella.

true story, bro.

and thank you, Ryan Higa!

aku suka yang mohawk yang ada dye blonde!

pasal ia capi-capi usulnya. HEHEHE

and the one on the front line during Rihanna's.

if you find yourself saying "wooaaaahh!" or something like it.

here's my reply: I KNOW RIGHT!

p.s. what happen if there's one song stuck inside your head?

cant.stop.singing.

Ahlan Wa Sahlan Ya Ramadhan!

2010-08-11T20:16:00.003+08:00

yello! :)

selamat berpuasa!
(i'm not cause...you know)

good thoughts, good thoughts, good thoughts!

2010-08-07T23:29:00.005+08:00

[Travis McCoy feat Bruno Mars- Billionaire]

with this wide of a forehead is the reason why bangs are necessary.
don't get me wrong, i'm not complaining.

but i miss my hair.

i would attend the CIS bbq nite but i didn't.
we had last minute function celebrating my brother's new job along with my parent's 23rd anniversary.

and i had lunch with dua bebehz tercinta! :)
Elle and Qiellah.

oh!
and i just knew that Haziqah Azari is in Vietnam now!

2010-08-06T22:07:00.003+08:00

why so?
HAHAHAHAHAHA!!

2010-08-06T17:26:00.000+08:00

hi!

yesterday was awesome!
i wish i could have it that way, everyday!
i went to itb earlier than the usual yesterday.
15 mins earlier, to be exact.

and my class ended until 9 and...that was it!
isn't that AWESOME?
but i had to wait until 12 to go home.
but its alriiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiight!

i'm getting boring, aren't i?
mind you, but i've always been this boring.

p.s. i'm not being too sensitive but just so you know, you've crossed way too many lines already.

August has come

2010-08-01T00:26:00.008+08:00

[Duffy- Stepping Stone (Airto cover) ]

look! i have tail!
hahahahahhaapakaan!

i didn't go to school today.
they said those who in engineering and business saja yang kena suruh datang.
HEHEHE.
a pure chance of bliss of sleeping in all day.
well, half of the day.

apparently, we're celebrating my little cousin's 8th birthday
(20th July)

(far right, Mohd Aiman Hamizan)

along with my cousin's 3rd wedding anniversary
(20th July)

AND

my uda's 41st birthday which falls on the 1st of August!

best wishes to everyone!

p.s. this lately (since going back to school) i have the...tendency to fall asleep anywhere i find it comfortable enough to bring myself into the world of darkness and loss the gravity that holds me back to earth. what does that make me?

i dont know what to trust anymore

2010-07-29T22:24:00.003+08:00

[B.o.B feat Hayley Williams- Airplanes]

(the picture is irrelevant to this post)

i sedih sangat. hampa.

the...school's orientation ends todaay! finally.

I DIDN'T KNOW WE WERE GONNA HAVE WALKATHON TODAY!

mau mati rasanya!

just thanks heaven, i wore the right shoes.

tapi aku escape. HEHEHE!

in the afternoon.

after signing the attendance.

i terus M.I.A

during the time of this orientation, i uhh...made a few friends (kali)

funny story is, they all know my name and go like "hey zulfa!" and something like "eh, zulfa!"

to which i responded like "oh! hey...!" or "EHHH!!"

i don't know their names.

not even one!

pelik.

we were having lunch together tadi!

and it's Qiellah's 19th birthday!

bebehz tercinta, tau.

aaaaaaaaaaaaaand, i run out of words.

mmmmkaay.

p.s. this is crap! i use too many inside jokes lah.

and my mood...macam rollercoaster!

i'm just that weird

2010-07-25T19:19:00.005+08:00

i can't believe my holiday is over now.

and it's actually time to go to school. again.
and one of the thing i wish it never exists in this world has started:
orientation!

i never really like the idea of orientation.
or maybe it's just me who isn't so friendly and i judge and im rude and all that sorts. HEHEHE.
well, i tend to build defensive wall when surrounded with strangers.
i just don't feel comfortable in 'getting to know each other' crap.

so it's peculiar how can i even have friends, yeah?
but i realised that my friends are those people who i once felt 'amazed' at when i first met them.
like si Haziqah Azari, i was amazed how small she was when we first met in form 1.
Ade: was amazed how obnoxious he looked like and sounded when talking. (still do)
Qiellah: was amazed how she can be talking craps but making sense at the same time.
Nazurah: was amazed that she can curse that can pierce right through your heart and it's amazing how i can relate things with her.

(i can mention everyone here but AKU MALAAASSS!)

so i feel sorry to them who are in the same 'rumpun' or whatever they called it as me.

but orientation is still a good thing though.
BELUM LAGI START BELAJAR!

2010-07-17T00:36:00.005+08:00

there's nothing to afraid about. save your thoughts with good things.

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it's been 7 days or so im away from home.
i've been staying at Lumut and now, Biong with Ejan and Nana.
Adele talked us into this and now, they are playing wii sampai te-bitchy2
oh, we even have a code for this: S.O as in sleepover (i know, i know)
HAHAHA

walking down the pavements

2010-07-11T00:17:00.010+08:00

[Glee Cast- Bohemian Rhapsody]

DAMNIT!
i lost the very last 5 minutes before midnight strikes by showering.
i should have posted something so that the date im writing this is on the day of my birth.
so people, let's pretend that it's still the 10th of July.
moreover, it's still 12-something-AM and i considered the next morning when i wake up as the new day with a new date.

so!
another year has gone and now, (i really hate to say this out loud) i'm 19!
time flies when you're having fun! myyy goddd!
all im going to say is that even though being 19 for me is really hard considering the fact that im closer to the end of "teenage", im happy that i have been living my life!
(i think)
i am now for almost 6 months in holiday mode, unemployed and broke!
it's the life that ive been dreaming about when im in school back then, though not on the unemployed and broke part.
it's like life...is taking on a vacation :)

but it all starting to come down when i, finally realised that there is more to life than just having it your own way. i know because at one point, i forgot that i have responsibilities and i've also come to the point that i must go on with life independently.
things REALLY started to change.

maybe that's what they called it as growing up or maturing.
Though i dont see myself as one and honestly, for me, growing up is hard.
because we are expected to act this certain ways when we reached at this certain age.
it's the social expectation and the norms and values we've internalised.
i mean, i dont see the point. it's like, the more we grow old, the more bitter we get.
the more serious we get. the more stressful we get.
that is not something i wanna be!
heck, the thought of it too isn't welcoming enough.

and for that, birthday is gonna be so easy if i have the will to accept.
and i'm reaching to it ssssssslowlyyyyyyyy

but then, maybe things gonna change its course again. maybe, one day.
and maybe that day is going to prove me wrong for saying all of this.
maybe.

p.s. Thank you to everyone for the effort or even any extras one to make me feel blessed for having you guys around. i feel loved! ♥!

p.p.s. Thank you Elle for the fighting fish, Qiellah for the most exotic cupcakes. Thank you to both of you for the surprise and Elle's two cousins too. Thank you to Haziqah Azari, Hazirah Hamid and Lukman Hakim for the day. YOU GUYS ARE THE MOST AWESOME!

p.p.p.s. HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAAY, ZULFA ZAFIRAH ZULKIFLI!
LET'S ROCK THIS 19 OUT!

it's time to stop whining over things that already happened

2010-07-08T23:41:00.007+08:00

[Michael Jackson- I Just Can't Stop Loving You]

baik di terikah mua atu, lanat!

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yo!
as of right now, i hate my current hair.
i just had a new haircut couple days ago.
well, i've been longing to cut my hair though for the last few weeks back.
and i've been nagging my mom too but now, when i finally had it,
i just came to a realisation that i hate it.
(okay, maybe i just dislike it)

just whenever i see myself in the mirror, i feel like i wanna die!
and i know it's not helping but i even browsed through old pictures.
depressi berat!!
im being a real pain in the ass to my mom.
(and to my sisters, my cousin, my aunts, babah)
i whined how i feel like i wanna cry when thinking about my hair.

sigh

dan sebagai penutup nya,
When you finally get what you wanted, it certainly doesn't mean you get what you needed

note to self: lain kali jangan luan capi-capi!

kekuatan kamu itu ada di hati kamu sendiri

2010-06-25T01:27:00.006+08:00

[Drake- Find Your Love]

there's something about this picture.
seperti ada 'oomphh'
(kalau anda tidak merasakan hal yang sama, kami turut simpati dengan kekurangan anda)

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z! says:
*eh! boring tuuu!
*skill lama sdh tu!
*tani kidnap laki2 atu
*ikat and then torture.
*lapas atu send video nya arh gf nya!
*MWAHAHAHAHHAHAHAA
gyrah says:
*haha! with what?
*haha! aaah!
*shudnt ve let myself down by them
*im stronger than that. what hppnd to me? i almost gave up
*i shud stop being miserable.
z! says:
*in any time, you feel like your world is going down...remember me! HAHAAHAHA
*bt srsly, by then, you would remember that you can always kill them

ehek ehek

2010-06-13T14:07:00.002+08:00

my google homepage! :)

indo jaie manja basa jiu eh!

2010-06-13T00:05:00.000+08:00

esehhmaaaaan, orang birthday! ;)

a whole lot balloon tied up around up the wrist. i can fly!

2010-06-12T23:24:00.006+08:00

my grandparents have their 50th anniversary today!

i wish them very well

and also, Muhammad Rafiq bin Haji Roslan

is celebrating his 7th birthday

this means bouncer, karaoke, bbq and dangdut!!!

but the funny part is I just hit my PMS right about the party started

which explains why im still all dry.

i should have posted this in all wet with a big grin plastered on my face that my cheeks gonna burst, you know.

isn't that effin great?

unbelievable!

a substance of pure awesome

2010-06-11T21:45:00.006+08:00

[Charice feat Iyaz- Pyramid]

please scroll down slowly

a run down mascara

the ceremony at Asma Hotel was yeah okay.

met Sarah ♥!

wehehehe

meanwhile

tragic, isn't it?

but it's okay, we already knew what cause it.

we got picture as evidence.

(evidence A)

TEEHEE!

girls with neon red lips

2010-06-10T22:27:00.003+08:00

oh ho ho ho!

well, HELLO there! :)

ini adalah bahan eksperimen

iklan ini tidak ada makna. terima kasih.

i can be a dimwit and a smartass altogether!

2010-05-31T14:00:00.004+08:00

people are hypocritical

2010-05-27T21:16:00.002+08:00

well, i'm pretty much nothing but a pain in the ass.
or a sore throat.
or a bad breakfast.

or a pain in the ear like i'm feeling right now.

i'm inadequate.

can't hardly wait

2010-05-22T22:27:00.002+08:00

been a week now

but i still feel the aches and the thought of being sick makes me lazy

and just want to lay in bed all day long

p.s. I CAN"T WAIT FOR MAY TO END!

hey you!

2010-05-16T15:41:00.003+08:00

you might wanna check this cause i know that you know that you are one heck of a person full with curiosity.

ain't that right?

TEEHEE!

THE PARTY IS GOING FIIIIIIIIIINEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

2010-05-15T20:20:00.002+08:00

though it's raining
but thats the awesome part, we get to play and jump and get wet!
wuhuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!

factory of happiness

2010-05-15T18:27:00.005+08:00

8th BIRTHDAY of
MUHAMMAD RAZIQ BIN HAJI ROSLAN

(the one in the middle)

do yourself some favour, snap out from the dreamland

2010-05-14T01:29:00.004+08:00

i'd like to call that thing i did up there as

the atomic bomb tongue!

cause it looks like an atomic bomb when blasting with the mushroom clouds!

ain't it right?

2010-05-13T23:55:00.000+08:00

exam!!!!!!!!!!!

hey look! WOMEN!

2010-05-09T16:54:00.004+08:00

[Usher feat Will.I.Am- OMG]

though i don't really say that i love you and thank you for everything that often but

d'awwww, they're holding hands! AWWWWW!
HAHAHA

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY, Ma!

"If I knew as a child what I know now, Mom, I probably wouldn't have made things so hard for you. I would have understood that you were looking out for my best interest even though it may not have seemed so at the time. I would have known how difficult it is to let go, to stand back and let someone you love learn from their mistakes. I would have realized how fortunate I was to have a mother who was always there for me, even after an argument, even after I'd said things I shouldn't have. While it's too late for a lot of things it's not too late for me to tell you that I appreciate how loving you are, how giving you've always been and that even though I may not always be good at showing it, I love you very much."

and of course, to the other moms in the family:

P.S. i know as a child, we give you troubles, the countless headaches for the things we've done cause you were worried but for us, its just the things we do, the difficulties of raising us up and to give us the best so that we will have more than the best, the efforts to teach and to guide us to face the world, those times when we fall to ground and all that. maybe we don't understand (or maybe tired of it) why do you always give us the talk but maybe, someday, somehow we will understand. and when that day comes mom, you probably should say
"now you get it how hard it is?"

the greatest man on earth!

2010-05-06T21:22:00.004+08:00

48 years it has been, since you first came to the world.

thank you for everything.

HAPPY BIRTHDAAAY!

i hope you will happy always and thank you for being you!

2010-05-04T00:18:00.004+08:00

[Rebecca- Ku Jatuh]
the song is on repeat, actually.

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY, ZAINATUL AMEERAH a.ka. MIYA ZAILANI!

sesungguhnya aku hanya ada gambar ini :|
(rupanya tani inda banyak gambar sama2. nanti tah! ah? ah?)
i'll change it if you want but 'till i have new one, guess we gotta stick with this (Y)

it's called A-W-E-S-O-M-E

2010-05-03T23:47:00.005+08:00

[Rebecca- Ku Jatuh]

i just cause a scene! HAHAHA

and that song is really stuck in my head
deal.with.it

oh! my friend's birthday just in 9 more minutes! :D

maaaf ya sebelumnya!

2010-05-01T23:34:00.006+08:00

[The Script- Live Like We're Dying]

whohohoho, wait a second there.

dude, you're not serious right? RIGHT?
tell me, you're not serious...please.

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that day, while was struggling to revise geography and was flipping through several notepads cause back then, i used to (still do) write all the important points on notes which explains why i have like 3 or maybe 4 notebooks or pads about geography cause i tend to forget to bring the real notebook or maybe i was just too lazy to turn around, unzip my bag and take out my notebook. so i wrote on papers or pads (majal!) that i carried along while walking around school. or there were also times, when i was so lazy that i just asked for papers from my friend who was sitting next to me and borrowed her pens which honestly, for me, the easiest thing to do.

this friend of mine is awesome, i tell you!
she sat next to me in history class too. we were even classmates!
well, we're awesome. HEHEHE
yeah okay, i feel we were the awesome one in geography class. happy now?
and history class too, just saying.

you know, the things i did when i entered geography class;
came in late, smile to my sir and looked at his hair, sat, talked or usually laughed for obvious reason, whined, asked for papers and pens,actually paid attention to class, talked about my tutor's hair again with my friend who sat next to me, laughed again, break time or school ends!
ev.ver.ry.sing.gle.tee.aime.

anywaaay, im waaay out of from my exact point here.
so i was flipping through and found this things i wrote. well, i always write things because it keeps me from forgetting them. even the smallest things. i tend to forget. so even the things that were just popping through my mind while i was trying to sleep, i write them (becerita kau aah?)
so, so, so, i read through it and i laughed so hard because the things i wrote was the time when one of my best friend faced this...issue and i too was mad. gila man, marah banar aku time atu!maybe i should write it in here,hahaha, pasal entah, right now, i found it cali plg.tapi i have to say it,
damn dude, handal aku ni when it comes to cursing!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH

well, like my friend said "kalau ku marah, melacis ni english ku!"

shit!
why do i even tell you this? (because your randomness cannot be tamed or controlled and that, is a problem)
oh i know, cause the thing imma 'bout to tell you in next next time is cali!
if you dont find it funny,
well, im sorry, you aint got no sense of humour

oh, sorry i waste your precious time! :)

p.s. this is full of craps cause i feel so high and the song has changed to ida maria's. it's like im on ecstasy AND im with qiellah on MSN, talking about the one thing that will always get us high, si rockstarr!

can we just headbanging together, all day long?

2010-04-30T20:59:00.004+08:00

[Ida Maria- I Like You So Much Better When You're Naked]

whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaatt?

HAHAHA!

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today,i've decided to do this thing:
im gonna buy those movies with sequels and watch it! HEHEHE
so far all i can think about are this:

Star Wars (im gonna continue with episode IV until episode VI)
Lord of The Rings
Harry Potter
Screams (mcm inda siuk, though ive watched the first one already, cancel)
The Matrix (left with The Matrix Reloaded and Revolutions)
Scary Movie (checked)
Indiana Jones (only left with the Kingdom of the Crystal Skull)
Star Trek
Lara Croft (checked)
Transformers (checked but possibly be re-watching it)

ha! my life!
but this is gonna be awesome!!

eh apakan.

2010-04-23T15:46:00.003+08:00

[T.R.I.A.D- Pasrah]

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WALAAH!! :D

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yes, i'm the grumpy one.
deal with it!